Chapter 20




Chapter 20
I'm so confused.  I don't know what these people get out of treating me like this.  I'm home from work.  I'm sober.  Watching t.v. and doing laundry.  For the last three hours people outside my window, people using a bug inside my room, people next door through the paper thin walls have said "they share." maybe three or four times a minute for three solid hours.  Who has the time to do this?  What is going on?  Am I sick?  I'm sick of it?  I ignored it at work.  And I definitely didn't call anyone a pussy at work.  
The critic says "they stop you".
The critic says "why try."
I won't be like these people.  I am not like these people. I enjoy conversation.  Speaking is a skill that can be fun and entertaining, enlightening even.  These people make speaking a game of retarded noises and pretend talk.  I'll work here for the job but its painful to not get to socialize.  I have to explain this to the ladies tomorrow afternoon regarding me calling the pussy a pussy.  I need to use the microwave in the community room.  I don't want to hear the locals.  I don't want to hear them be weak and try to upset me with their coward shit talk.  I'll wear my ear plug.
I want to find smart people to associate with.  
The critic says "you waste it."
I'm so tired.  were not going to Costa Rica yet.  I think i'll take a couple days off from these chapters the more I write the more they whisper.  Its late.  I want to drink again.  It makes the voices more dull and bother me less.  I don't want to entertain you critic.  You want to control the story.  You want to take away opportunity from me again and laugh about it amongst your hand holding so you have one more thing to whisper harassment at me.
The critic says "James stops her."
There is no her people and I'll keep it this way until smart women want to speak to me like a human being.
The critic says I'm worthless. 
And now wants me to stop it.
The critic asks me to "teach her".  No, you people are crazy.  When you are ready to grow up and speak to me like a person then I will treat you like a person and socialize with you.
Its not rap anymore.  Its you voyeuring me.  Demanding that I rap.  I told you people to stop years ago.  You didn't.  Now I'm like this, sick.  Thanks.
Why would you have too?  I don't want to catch someone you are just going to use against me.  Grow up people.
you can't repeat what you just said or I'm just going to cut and past this chapter.
No!  Try attracting me.
Your like a fish that is so mad I don't go fishing anymore.  You are so mad that you haunt me.  You want me to take my fishing pole and orchestrate my skills to trick you into my belly.  But I don't want to go fishing.  And so you bug my room and yell at my window the same advice.  Why don't you be delicious anymore fish?  Why aren't I hungry for you?  Maybe your not natural anymore.  You are stupid fish and I've found something else to make me happy.  And that happy is simply to not catch you.
The critic says "bad chapter".  Yeah fuck you and your shitty bad chapter.  Go write a chapter yourself and I promise I won't read it.
I just read that a PS4 VR head set is out.  I'm more happy then anything.  You people can repeat yourself all day if you want to.  I'm the happiest camper.  There is no camper that is more happy then me right now.  HA HA!
The critic said "bad camper".
Chapter 20
I'm so confused.  I don't know what these people get out of treating me like this.  I'm home from work.  I'm sober.  Watching t.v. and doing laundry.  For the last three hours people outside my window, people using a bug inside my room, people next door through the paper thin walls have said "they share." maybe three or four times a minute for three solid hours.  Who has the time to do this?  What is going on?  Am I sick?  I'm sick of it?  I ignored it at work.  And I definitely didn't call anyone a pussy at work.  
The critic says "they stop you".
The critic says "why try."
I won't be like these people.  I am not like these people. I enjoy conversation.  Speaking is a skill that can be fun and entertaining, enlightening even.  These people make speaking a game of retarded noises and pretend talk.  I'll work here for the job but its painful to not get to socialize.  I have to explain this to the ladies tomorrow afternoon regarding me calling the pussy a pussy.  I need to use the microwave in the community room.  I don't want to hear the locals.  I don't want to hear them be weak and try to upset me with their coward shit talk.  I'll wear my ear plug.
I want to find smart people to associate with.  
The critic says "you waste it."
I'm so tired.  were not going to Costa Rica yet.  I think i'll take a couple days off from these chapters the more I write the more they whisper.  Its late.  I want to drink again.  It makes the voices more dull and bother me less.  I don't want to entertain you critic.  You want to control the story.  You want to take away opportunity from me again and laugh about it amongst your hand holding so you have one more thing to whisper harassment at me.
The critic says "James stops her."
There is no her people and I'll keep it this way until smart women want to speak to me like a human being.
The critic says I'm worthless. 
And now wants me to stop it.
The critic asks me to "teach her".  No, you people are crazy.  When you are ready to grow up and speak to me like a person then I will treat you like a person and socialize with you.
Its not rap anymore.  Its you voyeuring me.  Demanding that I rap.  I told you people to stop years ago.  You didn't.  Now I'm like this, sick.  Thanks.
Why would you have too?  I don't want to catch someone you are just going to use against me.  Grow up people.
you can't repeat what you just said or I'm just going to cut and past this chapter.
No!  Try attracting me.
Your like a fish that is so mad I don't go fishing anymore.  You are so mad that you haunt me.  You want me to take my fishing pole and orchestrate my skills to trick you into my belly.  But I don't want to go fishing.  And so you bug my room and yell at my window the same advice.  Why don't you be delicious anymore fish?  Why aren't I hungry for you?  Maybe your not natural anymore.  You are stupid fish and I've found something else to make me happy.  And that happy is simply to not catch you.
The critic says "bad chapter".  Yeah fuck you and your shitty bad chapter.  Go write a chapter yourself and I promise I won't read it.
I just read that a PS4 VR head set is out.  I'm more happy then anything.  You people can repeat yourself all day if you want to.  I'm the happiest camper.  There is no camper that is more happy then me right now.  HA HA!
The critic said "bad camper".

I didn't sleep again.  Thanks people.